Friday, October 17, 2014

Feeling Empty without Junior

Feels so empty without my darling boy. I miss kissing him and saying to him that I love you many times a day. 
We prayed for a dog 11 years ago and he came into our lives. What a wonderful and awesome blessing he was. What joy to have him. So full of life and playfulness.
God took him at exactly the time He determined. I will always be thankful to God for the wonderful years I had with little Junior.











Thursday, October 16, 2014

Junior passed on to be with Lord Jesus today 16th October 2014

Today, is a very sad day for our family.  Our precious Junior, a miniature pincher, the life of our lives passed on to be with the Lord after surviving cancer for 2 years and 9 months. 

He was first diagnosed in January 25th 2012.  Fed him Flaxseed oil and Kwark and he survived nearly 3 years. 

In 2 days time he would have been 11 years old. 

May our Lord bless Junior and his new home in heaven with all the other dogs to play with. 

Junior, Mama and Papa loved you everyday of your life.  You are our precious baby boy.  I wish you could live longer but sadly your body couldn't take it anymore.  I love you and I miss you my baby.  You will forever be in my heart.  I love you.  Till we meet again. 

Thursday, November 28, 2013

 28 th November 2013

Junior's doing well and fine *smile*.  We're doing the same things - feeding him Flaxseed oil (from capsules) mixed with Kwark.  Food is cooked meat and veges and grinded. 

We give all thanks and Glory to Jesus.  


Sunday, May 26, 2013

May 2013

It's been way too long since I updated about Junior, our Mini Pinscher. 

Junior is doing extremely well all these months.  I praise God Almighty for His lovingkindness and healing.  We still lift Junior up to God daily with prayers of thanksgiving and continued healing.

I still prepare the same kinds of food for him daily, namely meat and vegetables, cooked quickly, just to kill any bacteria, grind it and he is fed a total of 5 meals a day in small amounts each time. 
He still consume Flaxseed oil and Kwark 3 times a day.  Some days he does get an extra capsule of Flaxseed oil.  We use Vitotaal Flaxseed oil capsules (I prick a hole into the capsule and drain those precious oil out) and once a day Jacob Hooy brand Flaxseed oil, all mixed with Kwark.

Last year he lost a lot of weight and we decided to supplement him with Hill's Recovery and continue to do so.  I open a can of Hill's Recovery and divide into 8 parts and freeze them.  He gets 1/8th part of Hill's every alternate days. 

He used to get a few bits of Royal Canine Intestine ??? .......... but we stopped that since he threw up at least once a month.  He has been doing much better without those dog kibbles. 

He does get Dentastix once in a while for his bad breath. 

He is playing, eating and sleeping very well.  Since we started working on the garden again this year, he has been very busy there in the garden, running and bugging us to throw things or even try to dig a hole.  My sweetheart. 

Everyday that I see him, I thank God that He answered our prayers and turned our tears to joy.  We smile alot now, we're happier too. We are slowly taking time to enjoy our lives.  The devil robbed us of joy last year but God gave us back triple and more.  I will praise God on my bended knees forever and ever.  I love you Jesus!!!!!

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

November 2012

November

19th November
Junior was ill from the 19th November to 24 th November.  Vet suspects he has parasites in him since he large intestines were inflammed/swollen.  She prescribed Stomorgyl however, Junior took it only on the first day and he rejected them thereafter.

25th November
Junior seems to have a super day, full of energy and playing.

26th November
Junior had an okay start and at 5 pm, I gave him an egg.  He went for a long walk with his dad and came home and slept and slept.  He kept going under cover.  He rejected his 8.30 pm food but we force fed him his kwark and 1 vitotaal.  He ate a teeny bit at 11.30 pm and that was it.

27th November
10 am -- Junior rejected his food of cooked and grinded turkey, broccoli and cauliflower. 

Days like last night and this morning, I feel a bit anxious.  I prayed real hard just now and feel better that God is in control over our situation, over Junior.  He knows what has happened, is happening and will happen.  It's been a roller coaster ride of sorts for us but we put all our faith on Jesus.  Some days are better than others and I pray Junior will somehow miraculously live till the time appointed for him by God. 
PS- Junior keeps rejecting the kwark and Flaxseed oil.  I am quite worried 

Monday, September 10, 2012

Junior --- September 2012

1st - 10th September 2012

Junior is doing well.  He eats, plays, rests and poops normal.  He is tired sometimes and I think that's normal for a dog in his situation and age.  Since 1st August I have included 4 capsules of vitotaal brand of flaxseed oil everyday.

So he gets 1/2 teaspoon of Jacob Hooy Flaxseed oil and 2 teaspoons of Albert Heijn Organic low fat kwark, mixed together, 3 times a day (9 am,  1.30 pm, 4.30 pm).
At 8.30 pm he gets 4 capsules of Vitotaal flaxseed oil mixed with 2 teaspoons of AH Organic low fat kwark.
His meals are still mostly the same, vegetables and meat.  He gets 1 egg on alternate days.
3/4 capsule of Milk Thistle and 1 capsule of turmeric.

Junior doesn't drink water since January.  Why I don't know.  So I give him slightly soupy meals.  *smile*.

I love Junior and I bless him everyday.  We still pray over him, laying our hands on him and praying that God will heal him.  We actually thank God that He has healed him.

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15th September 2012
Junior is in some kind of pain.  He yips or gives out a pain sound.  It's about a week now.  We thought that maybe he jumped from the couch and landed in a bad position and therefore he hurts.  He peeps when we carry him up to bed and  he wants to rush to the bed but something hurts and he yips.

This morning, we came back from shopping and he yipped with pain a few times, mostly when he lifts his body to reach the hubby.  We don't know if it's his back, neck or leg.  Or is it pain from cancer.???

All the visible cancer tumours look shrunk.  So I don't know what is causing him this pain.  Is it muscle pain or cancer pain.

Today, I burst into tears 2 times when I met someone I know.  Just couldn't hold on.  Just burst out tearing.

I pray my boy will recover soon.  I pray my boy is not in pain.  But when he does have more pain, yipping more times, then we have to consider the dreaded decision of putting him to sleep.  I can't bear that.  But his happiness is more important than ours.  Junior, mama loves you.  You made mommy happy for nearly 9 years.  His birthday is on 19th October.  He will be 9.  We pray for more years to come with him, us all together.  I have no children and he is my child, my baby.

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17th September
Brought Junior to the Vet.  He hurt his right front paw, poor boy.  He also has pain on his shoulder/neck area.
Gave him Moderin

18th September - 25 January 2012
Been giving Junior Moderin (methylprednisolone) and till yesterday, the swelling on his right paw seems to go down.  But today around midday, he was limping again.  So husband made an appointment with another Vet for tomorrow and we will know more.  I pray my boy will recover soon from this.

Since Junior lost alot of weight, about 700 gms, and he is now 4 kg (8.8lbs), we decided to add some dog food for him.  Alex bought a can of Hill's Recovery and a bag of Royal Canine Gastro Intestinal dry food.  We gave him the RC yesterday and he was so happy eating that.  We gave him just 50 gms. The rest of the day he had his normal meat and vegetables meal.

25 Sept
Today, I gave him the Hill's Recovery food ..... he ate happily but during his 6 pm walk, he had diarrhoea.  So we will stop with Hill's Recovery.   Perhaps give one can per month or so.  Hopefully he adds on more weight since winter will soon come. 

For the rest, he has been good, eating well, sleeping alot (because of the Moderin).  We continue to pray daily for him that Jesus will give him an extension of life and that he be brought back home on the command of our Lord.

I read Psalms 34 today and feel very comforted.

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Wednesday, August 1, 2012

August 2012


 1st August 2012
0630hrs  -- Junior vomitted.  I think it was because of the half teaspoon of Jacob Hooy flaxseed oil that I gave the previous day.

0900 hrs - 3 capsules
1200 hrs - 4 capsules
1730 hrs - 4 capsules
2100 hrs - 2 capsules

Whole day was slightly more than 1 and half teaspoons of Flaxseed oil and kwark.
We went to the garden for about 2 hours.  Junior enjoyed himself.
Came home and Junior was tired the whole day.  He pooped good the whole day. 

2 August
0730 hrs - Woke up, J and I.
0800 hrs - gave 3 capsules of oil with kwark.
0900 hrs - Junior pooped good (hard).
1000 hrs - Junior ate cooked meat and vege.
1400 hrs - 4 caps
1430 hrs - 4 small piece meat and cauliflower


Looks like Junior feels a bit tired this morning.  We prayed over him and Our Lord will hear our cries and pleas. Junior perked up after 1300 hrs.  Praise God.

3 August

4th August

5 August
Gave Junior 5 x 1/4 teaspoons ( 1 and 1/4 tsp of Flaxseed oil with double the low fat organic Kwark.  Junior looked well the whole day.  He started slow in the morning but by 4 pm he was fully energised.  However, around 9 pm he looked uncomfortable, as though he wanted to throw up.  Husband brought him out in case he needed to poop.  Junior just urined and no poop. 

So, it's 4 days now since he vomitted and I am glad. 

6th August
I am still going to give him a total of 1 1/4 teaspoons of oil today mixed with double the amount of kwark. Timings - 0900, 1200, 1500, 1800, 2100 hrs.
His food will be the same, meat and vegetables plus 3/4 capsule milk thistle and 1 turmeric capsule.
When I feel he looks comfortable or improves on his performance I will increase his flaxseed oil to a total of 1 1/2 teaspoon per day and give that for a few days.  My goal is to slowly increase his flaxseed oil to 2 1/4 teaspoons per day.


Junior took a turn for the worst exactly on Friday the 13th July.  That's when we realised that that brand of flaxseed oil we bought at the nature store was not working.  He threw up a few times before Friday the 13th.  But on this day, he vomitted and had the diarrhoea 5 times.  He was practically shooting liquid poop out and he was in pain.
So that evening Alex bought flaxseed oil capsules and I gave him 2 or 3 for starters.  It arrested the diarrhoea problem.  Slowly I increased the flaxseed oil amount but he threw up some times.  Right now he is on Jacob Hooy flaxseed oil and AH low far organic Kwark.  The last time he threw up was at 6 am 1st August.  It's now 6th August and Praise God he is doing good.

My boy is 8 yrs going on to 9 in October.  He is my best friend and I am not ready to let him go.  As long as he has no pain I am glad.  Each day we both pray over him and God has so far sustained him.

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7 August
Junior has done extremely well today.  My boy.  Anyway, I increased his Flaxseed oil to a total of 1 1/2 teaspoon today.  That is half teaspoon of oil and 2 teaspoons of low fat organic Kwark.  I gave at 9 am, 4 pm and the last one at 8 pm.

His appetite is back and he is playing like a puppy.  Praise God.
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8th August
Jay is doing well Praise God.  He is a miracle dog.  He had extraordinary energy today.  Alex brought him to the garden and I was told that he enjoyed tremendously.  Praise God.  All Glory be to God.

Flaxseed oil - 1 1/2 teaspoons total.

I will hold this amount for a week and then increase it to 2 teaspoons per day and hold it there for a week or two and finally increase it to 2 1/2 teaspoons per day.  That should be good for his weight.  Junior has lost alot of weight and I am slowly adding slightly more to his amount.  He eats cooked meat and vegetables (spinach, cabbage, cauliflower, brocolli, ginger, zuchinni (courgette), paprika (capsicum).
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15th August

Going excellent with our little dog.  I praise God with every cell in our body.
I need to increase his flaxseed oil till he reaches 2 teaspoons of oil per day .... I will slowly add the increase this week, perhaps 1/4 teaspoon.  Then next week another 1/4 extra and that will bring it to a total of 2 teaspoons per day.
Junior, our minipinscher dog is pooping good.

I must add that 1st August we discovered another 2 small tumors/lumps.  Total visible is now 4.  The one on his right paw and left paw have shrunk considerably.  Thank God.


25th August -- Junior threw up at 11 pm

 Junior threw up this evening (after 25 days of being well).  I think I must have fed him a wee bit too much.  He had his flaxseed oil and kwark at 9.20 pm.  Then by about 9.35 pm I called him to eat his dinner.  So maybe the two food came too close to each other.

We need to start monitoring him very closely now.  We continue to pray that Jesus will keep him safe.

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26 August 2012
Junior threw up 4 times around mid day.  Around 1 pm I gave him 2 capsules of the flaxseed oil with 2 tsp of kwark (instead of the Jacob Hooy Flaxseed oil.)

He went out with his dad and according to dad he was behaving like a young pup.  He pooped a small amount but thick (no diarrhoea).

They came home and he came to the kitchen and I gave him his cooked food but he doesn't feel like eating it.  His father is cutting his red meat (beef) into small pieces to put into the freezer.  So Junior is very loyally sitting next to dad hoping some piece might fall to the floor.

My heart broke for a moment yesterday and I prayed that it was a one time thing.  But this noon when he threw up 4 times .... I felt shattered.  We both prayed over him.  We just got to trust that Jesus has everything in control, the good times and the bad times.  Our faith in God has grown over the months.  We rely on HIM for total strength in character.  When we are in our saddest period, that's when we actually feel God's comfort and consolation.  We continue to trust in God.  He is the maker of this life and everything in it.  Everything born has to someday die, including us and our doggie too.  I prayed before that God can take Junior when HE wants to.  I pray that the disease doesn't take him.

Junior seems to have sudden energy right now at 2 pm.  Perhaps it was yesterday's food.  Perhaps I didn't cook it too long. Perhaps I kept it too long in the fridge.  I cooked his 11 am food and the leftover he ate at 5 pm.  Perhaps it was too old.  I don't know.  Perhaps the Kwark was too old.  Last night was the 3rd day.  Every tub of kwark has to be used within 4 days.  Perhaps the Flaxseed oil was old (the bottle was nearly empty yesterday.  This morning I opened a new bottle.)

It tears the heartstrings.  But we got to stay positive and think positive.  We are praying that from now onwards he gets better.  No more vomitting episode. 

29th August
When I woke up in the morning I saw Junior sitting on the bed edge.  My heart sank.  So I quickly got dressed and brought him to the living room.  We slept on his bed.  Around 8.30 am I made flaxseed oil and kwark and gave him.  Did something in the kitchen and thought I would check on him and he was standing and looking like he was going to throw up.  My heart sank another time.  So, I brought him out for his walk and when he walk he gave one peep of pain sound.  I prayed.  Jesus please help this dog, my dog.  He managed to poop, once a thick amount and the next was quite wet.  I wasn't happy with the wet part.

Him peeping with pain brought back memories of all those times he was in pain.  I prayed even harder.

Thank God he was okay the whole day and didn't throw up.

Anyway, around lunch time I gave him 4 capsules of flaxseed oil from Vitotaal.  In between he had 2 times half teaspoon of FO (flaxseed oil) and kwark.  In the night I gave him 3 capsules of Vitotaal oil and kwark.

He slept that night and we had no issues.
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30th August
We went to the garden, Junior and us.  It rained.  *smile*.
0900 - 3 vitotaal capsules oil with kwark.
1145 hrs - breakfast.  (he was late this morning).
1230 hrs - 1/2 tsp of Jacob Hooi FO and kwark.
1430 hrs - his meal of vege and meat.
1630 hrs - 1/2 tsp of JH FO and kwark.
1800hrs - Dinner for J was meat and cauliflower and broccoli, cabbage.
2030 hrs - 3 capsules of Vitotaal FO and kwark.
2230 hrs - small dinner of meat, veg, tumeric

This evening, on the couch, I just ran my finger on one of the tumor that was on his left front paw and felt that the lump was slightly bigger.
Ran my finger to check the tumor that was on his right leg, near elbow, was still shrunk.  Am glad for that.

Just have to keep our faith and trust that our Lord is in control over every aspect of our lives, both in life and death.

I told Jesus that I was tired, really tired and HE flashed *I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me* ..... Suddenly, my mind felt alert.  Praise God.

Junior has been ill since year 2010 -- vomitting and constant diarrhoea.  Last year, 2011, he had bouts of diarrhoea and vomitting and each time the vet just gave medication.
This year, 2012, January 23, we brought him to the Vet and she felt that his liver was slightly bigger.  Send him for scanning and 2 tumors were found.  One in the liver and another near the beginning of his small intestine.

In March, after a month of FO and Kwark, we brought him for a checkup and the vet said that the liver felt suppel, flexible.

It's August now.  So, God has actually given him an extra 2 years.  2010 beginning of illness and now August 2012.  It's still a blessing that we still got our boy with us.

I am signing off now.  Am tired.  Going to rest.